DREAM/Can you beleive thats it all a dream? In and out of the light...In and out of fright...Lying in wait for the sleep...So he goes from me
TODAY/i've seen all i want to see today...but it seems to come on ...it wont go away..i've heard all i want to hear today..i cant turn it off...its non-stop this way...ive felt all i can feel today...somethings always coming down...always filling my soul...
ive hurt all i can hurt today...does he care ...will he make it go away...ive cried all i could cry today.....ive died inside today.
BRING ME BACK/Where did i go? I wandered away..i'm lost...find me...Bring me back...hold me, hold me tight...Close to you, touch my soul,
never let me go...Where am i?where do i belong? In your life, in mine..i'm lost...Bring me back...I'm drowning in feelings...i can feel it...air loss...mind lost...i'm lost...Bring me back.
A LITTLE GIRL/I use to be a little girl..then he touched me...
he yelled at me...now i cannot see...i do not hear, nor feel...me...I use to be a little girl...i ran...i played...i laughed...then he drank...then he hated me...he wanted me dead...i did too...I use to be a little girl...i talked to myself...i played alone...i cried every night to..me..HE gave me anger, HE gave me fear, HE showed me distrust...I use to be a little girl...when i was three...he touched me...he tore away the little girl...he left a shell...a grown up person moved into her...She cannot feel...She cannot see..She has anger...She has fear...She wants him to die...then their will be nothing inside.
This is a song by " BUSH" it's called"COLD CONTAGIOUS" and it says alot about abuse to me (**this may not be the meaning the band is trying to get across**) and here are the words...
"Wherever you are, you will carry always...The truth of the scars, and the darkness of your faith..Slowly move on, how did we get to here...It all went wrong, gravity claiming all your tears...Everything looks...so much better now...You will get yours, You have no right to ask me now..You were never that around...I have missed...Reality daytrips and your suit me, suit me ways...Turn out the light switch, we've been awake for days...and no ones coming around here no more...You will get yours ,You have no right to calm me down..You never that around..I have missed...Cold contagious...All the mighty , mighty men...What you save is what you lose out in the end...Cold contagious..Paint your perfect day...I don't mind this...I am better off by the way, deeply grounded...You will get yours...Cold contagious..All the mighty , mighty men...What you save is what you lose out in the end...Cold contagious.........." Thanks to 'BUSH' for a great song that means alot to me!!**
###JANE SAYS BY, 'JANES ADDICTION'....1988"###
jane says i'm done with sergio...he treats me like a ragdoll...she hides the television...says i don't owe him nothing...but if he comes back again, tell him to wait right here for me...try again tomorrow/i'm gonna kick tomorrow...i'm gonna kick tomorrow/...jane says...have you seen my wig around? i feel naked without it..she knows they all want her to go...but thats ok man she don't like them anyway...jane says i'm going away to spain when i get my money saved........i'm gonna start tomorrow/i'm gonna kick tomorrow...i'm gonna kick tomorrow/i'm gonna kick tomorrow..she gets mad..and she start to cry...takes a swing man she can't hit!! she don't mean no harm...she just don't know...what to do about it...jane goes to the store at night she walks up on to St. andrews...she waits...and gets her dinner there...SHE PULLS HER DINNER FROM HER POCKET....JANE SAYS I'VE NEVER BEEN IN LOVE---NO SHE DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS..SHE ONLY KNOWS THAT SOMEONE WANTS HER.......I WANT THEM IF THEY WANT ME...I ONLY KNOW THAT HE WANTS ME...........JANE SAYS.....JANE SAYS..............................
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